Sad and Smothered

It was great until it hurt 

And we were good and then we weren’t

We said “Until we link up again” 

It’s been a year and I’m still drained

I didn’t know that love could wound

I overthought and was therefore doomed 

You neglect and were not immune 

I guess the both of us were aloof

Been a year and I found another 

But still can’t fix that broken heart 

Now I am feeling sad and smothered

Nature of passion, like Descartes

We’d be just fine til we drink

And then we’d start spitting what we think

I follow you but you don’t follow back

Still vibing in the same cul de sac

I’m not crazy it’s an anxiety attack

I still got your shirt in my laundry

I still got your ring in my lock box

Even though I love another strongly 

Feeling so incredibly unorthodox 

Just give me a Dark ‘N’ Stormy

I’m here for drinks and not for glory 

I’m better off without you 

I just want to love a different girl 

I’m loving in a different hue

I’m gonna go ahead and give it a whirl

Your face is still in my photo gallery

Your ghost still lurks in my suggestions

But you had little to no personality 

And the verdant girl leaves impressions

“We cannot be more sensitive to pleasure

 Without being more sensitive to pain”

Might as well just try again

© Niklen 5/23/21