Just A Little Less Than Okay

“Heyo, what’s up peeps, this is Nick.

I am currently unable to pick up your call at this moment.

So, make sure to leave your darkest thoughts after the beep.”

*Beep*

So, please tell me if we are okay?

Because I’ve been feeling choked up these days

Tell me has it always been like this?

Are we ever going to feel just okay again?

I want to say I love you, but I can’t

This is heavy like a weighted blanket

No city has real secrets, I know all the shortcuts

Now I am so fuckin’ lost looking for your touch

I accidentally brought some burdens with me 

Imperfection is just perfection to me

I just hate it when I lose visual and life seems hazy

So I’m going to hope we are going to agree

I told you we should try a break and I intended it

I’m so sorry that I said that, I didn’t really mean it

You had some shit that you were going through

And so did I

But all I know is that I miss you

“Hey baby, it’s me. 

I wanted to call you back because I feel like something would be missing if I didn’t.

I love you, and I am always with you and will always be there for you.

This shit sucks because I know I love you and I want you, but I need some time and it’s not fair.

At all.

To you.

To us. 

But I know I’ll come back to you, so please take care of yourself.

I promise you, I will work on me.”

*End Call Sound*

© Niklen 10/26/21